LOG ~ Moon Flower's Bad-Fur-Day (Update)

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UPDATE


Laptop seems to be dying too.
The fan does strange noises since one or two weeks and I had two bluescreens since yesterday.
At least my works are backed up but I'm pretty much unable to work on further photos and if the laptop breaks then I have no internet access at all.

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Table Of Contents


  1. Misfortunes never come singly :(
  2. Well, poop, no phone... :cries:
  3. Feelings :hmm:
  4. Current project status :pc:
  5. Break :relax:
  6. Future projects :work:
  7. Thanks :huggle:

1. Misfortunes never come singly


This is my day so far:
  • Dropped phone, still worked fine nonetheless.
  • Heard phone's alarm while showering; it was next to my clothes.
  • Got dressed, left shoelace of favourite pair ripped off. :(
    Quick fix: Shifting and knotting lace.
  • Fetched phone to check stuff.
    Screen stayed black, no LED light, no vibration, nothing, dead; well feck... :(
  • During Easter there were "kinder Maxi Surprise" with 4 different MLP characters (FS, AJ, TS, Ra).
    Got 5 eggs the past days; 1x Twilight Sparkle, then 4x Rarity in a row; I don't even like her.
    Visited different supermarkets for more, none had any left. :(
  • Back at laptop I did troubleshooting for hours form my phone.
    Reset combinations & buttons, charging, plugging on PC, got it even disassembled to check hardware.
    Everything seems fine, nothing worked and laptop doesn't recognise any device (not even a broken one). :(

2. Well, poop, no phone...

  • Calendar with appointments: Gone. :(
  • Phone numbers: Gone. :(
  • Pokémon GO with Easter event (including double XP): Gone. :(
  • Steam Guard & Market (+potential money): Gone. :(
  • Skype Mobile: Gone.
    Certainly most hurtful as I used to chat with someone specific which often brightened up the past evenings. :cries:

3. Feelings


I feel bad for my broken "Derpy shoes" - as I call them - and phone.
I feel more depressed which causes increased physical pain
I feel demotivated, uninspired, spiritless, sad, shiftless, weak, depleted.
I don't feel like I can handle DA and working on art anymore. :hmm:

4. Current project status


Nonetheless I still try to sort, post-process and submit the rest of the "Luxembourg - Garden > 2017-03-16" collection.
I'm so close to its end, I just can't let it go and give up now. :clap:

47 out of 237 photos "qualified" for processing and submission so far.
15 out of 252 photos are left.
 3 out of  15 photos will be processed and submitted for sure; some of the remaining 12 might be worked on as a bonus.
One photo takes about 0.5-2 hours on average to me. (Time for photo session, discarded works and editing descriptions not included). :pc:

5. Break


First of all I would need some days off after the current project is done, especially after what happened today.
  • I need to look for phone numbers and check for my appointments.
  • I need to get the phone repaired or a new one.
  • I want to play something again on my laptop.
  • I accumulated 2256 notifications since 28th March 2017, mostly deviations and art feature journals. :faint:
    I neglected them to have time on my own artsy work.
  • I will definitely look at all of them but I also will finally start to unwatch people, especially those I added only due to a single deviation.
    I follow 484 deviants so far and hundreds of notifications a day (!) is just overwhelming to me because I can't just ignore them and click them away.
    It doesn't help to manage my time and depression.
    I want to gather courage to unwatch people, it's nothing personal.
    It's just a matter of my taste which isn't appealed to the vast majority of your art and in this case a :+fav: and maybe a comment should be enough.
    I rather want to mainly watch MLP, Nintendo, Dragons, Equines, Domestic Cats art and stuff of people I might consider as buddy or even friend.


6. Future projects


  • In meantime I did another couple of photo sessions in that specific garden; it's amazing how much it changes in a single week.
    There are 3 newer sessions so far, (30 Mar, 6 Apr, 13 Apr 2017).
    They won't have as many submissions as the first one, hopefully, as I've got a better idea what pictures I could discard now and I try to avoid repetitions.
  • Some day I want to finish my current (MLP) drawing which I began in March 2016, but currently I'm working on my photographies.
  • I want to keep looking for myself too.
    My health plays a central role in terms of motivation and a happy life some day in the future.
    I'm not exactly doing good currently but it certainly improved the past year; even though I suffered some major setbacks or - like today - many smaller ones at once. :hmm:
    Currently I'm swallowing more meds again (especially pain killers), only 5 pills a day though, which still is much less than back in the day when I was hospitalised. :)
    Kinesiotherapy for my back is nice, unfortunately temporary only, but it enables me to do (basic) things such as breathing deeply, longer sleep, doing photo sessions, shopping for groceries, cooking etc. :)
    I have an appointment for an MRI (magnetic resonance imaging) of my left foot the 22nd May for something that happened back the 16th February, originally 19th June in another hospital. :faint:
  • Still looking to get the handicapped worker status which would grant me possibilities to finally get a job because a normal workplace just isn't imaginable at my current state.
    I want to earn money myself.
  • And living on my own again would be nice too.
  • I'd like to gather the courage to maybe visit people I met on DA and elsewhere which became some kind of internet friends.
    We could have good times through talking, doing art together, going out and whatever else friends do; I'd be glad to learn. :la:
    Maybe one of them even could drag me or convince me to go to a con with them (video games, furry, My Little Pony, others); I'm too anxious to visit one, especially alone. =p

:work:


7. Thanks


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For the laptop: check that the fans aren't all clogged up with dust. They need cleaning out every now and then. Overheating can make things bluescreen. The user manual should show how to open up any covers that might be in the way. (If you can't find the manual that came with it, searching "user manual <laptop model>" should pull up something.)